I’ve spend the last twenty five years in reflection. Journaling became a daily reflection. A history class had me believing we must examine the past, so we don’t repeat it. A woman shared the famous maxim, “Know thyself.” and I took it to heart. I believed if I could understand my past, I’d accept it and be happy ever after.
Now I attempt to live my present as I share parts of my past. In about 2003, a journal entry states, “I examine my life over and over to get back to who I really am and when others listen I express deep, deep pain and move beyond it.”
This is a poem from back then I’d like to share:
Living life lovingly
Laughing through the tears
Lest U be Seen
Laughing in the darkness
Lessons in Love
Emotion is Here
Itching to get out
Infinite possibilities
Cast inside and around
Being who I am
Shine on
Heal myself
Help others
Transform our world
History repeats
Till we hear our call
Claiming to be one
Calypso
Chrystalis centred
Crashing Thru Fear
Raging Inferno Can’t
Banish Existence
Carrying on
Generational Angst
Allowing it’s Exit or
Entry into Oblivion
And Enter a new day
Dreaming
Discovery
Desperate no more
Descent into hell
is disconnection
Deepest desire
Divisions aside
Delusions destroyed
Awe
At one
Heartfelt happening
Hail peace
Harmony within.
Who would have thought I’d be sitting on a golf resort patio seeing the reflection of palm trees and a water feature in the windows as I ate a scrumptious chicken berry delight salad this week following a score of thirty six on the challenging nine hole executive.
I have much more harmony than I had in 2003 and much of that is due to reflection and this writing club. THANK YOU
ellensagh 