Living my Life Song
Releasing the Past
I Am Done!
And yet aspects from before
Still useful
Find new uses for old and pass it on
Holding on to what
For what purpose?
August 16, 2020
Leavings –The following are Writings (August 9 – October 17, 2020; inspired by Book: The Woman’s Spell Breaker: A journal for rediscovering your true nature by Cindy Johnston; shared with my daughter) interspersed with my daily snippets.
One of My Tribe; a woman from Alberta; who I’m unsure I ever met; wrote “Feel the stirring of the wind as Spirit flowing through our lives,” Her name: Diane Linden. Her song, “Crone’s Lullaby.”
I would say, “Feel the Spirit in All of life touching me and know I am Spirit as well. Live my Life Song.” August 9, 2020
Teachers and Wisdom Activators that come to mind this day: Carolyn McDade, Singer-songwriter, who wrote and sang, “Listen, listen to the voices that beg to differ from the rest.”
A song, “Long May You Run”, by Neil Young; which I rarely sing; but must have heard, came into my head regarding this subject; tells me the story I am running in my head is I haven’t heard from this aspect of myself since 1962; it’s here now and hoping it has a long run. Enjoying life might be what his song is about or it could be to do with living well to old age; knowing the effect my sister’s death from domestic abuse had on me and how it shaped my writing and my need to do something to end abuse continued to haunt me to this day. That girl from 1962 is needing to be heard.
“All creatures great and small;” was a line I heard and CREATURES have been my teachers and wisdom activators; such as birds, and now creatures I see in all I look at; whether human, animal or creatures I see in whatever is before me…….
Trust in myself.
Transient is our Life. We are Spirit. August 11, 2020
Someone who lives authentically; my daughter, BARBARA ANN SAGH, comes to mind as she
Speaks up for herself
Is happy at home
Can be by herself
Not seeking honors for herself
Lives her inner wisdom August 18, 2020
I Want Serenity
Peace and
Calmness
Be okay
With Being
Moved emotionally
Around family.
Open Window
Smell of Harvest
As I do Yoga
Aug 18 -20, 2020
On way to Edmonton
With Barbara and the girls
I Pad is found
Good-byes been said
Construction zone through Saskatoon
A hot air balloon
Tea and muffins
Helicopter practicing landings
Bathroom stop on side road
In the wolf willow
Red and blue birdhouses
Alone the fence line
Water with ducks
Seven oil wells
Sierra counted to twenty-seven
I saw a grain terminal
Mya a castle
Pens for Kindergarten workbook
And a 3 and 5-year old occupied
Barbara seeing hawks
I magpies
Relating is her or my tarot card
Dairy Queen hamburger lunch
Gas station bathroom stop
Masks for all
Peppa Pig on one I Pad
Nursery rhyme songs on another.
Sunday, August 23, 2020
Mostly good sleep
Down; Sad Tears at 2 am
Out on deck crying
Watching the sky
Staring at stars and clouds
Not knowing why
This morning I know
Unhappy times I’ve had
Feelings I had to deny
To fit in; belong
They’re here right now
Want happiness as well
Body pain here
As well as the fear
I wasn’t able to express
When I was 9 or 2 or 15 or 7
So it is here again
About to be spent
See the happy times
Cause of the girls
Sharing their excitement
Disappointment and fears
Aug 26, 2020
Mya is three
Said
“Teacher said when I’m three I won’t scribble”
Crying her disappointment to me
“I’m three and I still scribble.”
August 26, 2020
IDEA: Red & Purple Binder; COVID -19 MY WAY is the Title – August 27, 2020
Off to Casey’s Grad Barbeque
This Sat. Aug 29th 30-degree day
Swathers in the field
Golden green all around
Hwy 41 construction finished
We now own an RV
Deposit down on the land
An hour from the city
Deep Woods Campground
At Little Wakaw Lake
Now discussing kayaks and a barbeque
Some fields combined
Most rows of golden swaths
Trees not changed color
Cows standing in a slough
One combine only going at 2 pm
Sitting since Thursday’s rain
A field of bales
Wrapped in green plastic
A tour of our lot
Debate where to sit RV
Will we need to trim trees?
For best position of slides
Deluxe beef dip barbeque
Guest list under 30
Sanitizer and social distancing.
August 29, 2020
Moments are all we have
Explore your dreams knowing each character an aspect of self wanting to be heard
In a relationship we take turns caring for one another.
I am learning, changing and gaining freedom from the wounds of the ages as I let them go.
My body lets them go. August 31, 2020
When I think of honouring women’s wisdom:
Kindness, gentleness and acceptance of the aspects of self I now don’t like; knowing I developed them as I needed; to survive and thrive.
Seven am I am sitting in the sun in the living room. Last night was the pre-full moon. Maybe why we lay awake many hours. Shedding.
Tonight; a Full Corn Moon; learned today from web on phone.
September 1, 2020
Outside in Garage
Sorted my songs
Left at 10 am
Measured RV
New route out of town
Marquis drive to the
Chief Mistawasis Bridge
Through eastern new Saskatoon
Aspen trails, Evergreen
Safeway stop for garbage bags
Lunch packed and hot tea
Saws, a hoe and measuring tape
Owner of land calls
Installed 4 stakes at 111
In a straight line in right location
Can move it forward and backward
Have time to think about
Deck, shed and trees
This general rain in Saskatchewan
An end to combining
Golden wheat, bearded barley
Swathed canola; sitting
Saw Shawaga Road sign first time
Found our lot
Bob pulls nettles
I pull pig weed
He chops dead wood
I watch cranes in the field
Sun comes out as we
Eat our picnic lunch
Two young woodpeckers
Storm all around
Absolute beautiful
Where we are.
September 2, 2020
Heart meditation
Connect with three friends
Grandchildren connect
So many tears over grief I’m in
Acceptance of it
Surrendering to it I guess
And trying not to be derisive
Beauty outside gorgeous
Appreciating effort I’ve been doing
Putting into life healing
Caring for self and others
Such beauty in my house
Looking around inside and out
Beginning to heal
Let go of some big things
Heart and left shoulder area
Development of Equanimity
As healing my mouth now and then
Infected teeth and gums
Teeth all extracted at once
Dentures put in; a horror experience
Wisdom teeth removal within two years
Body Remembering
Dreaming telling someone
15 or 16 when had them all out
First dentures put in immediately
Patient, kind and accepting
Of the experiences of this moment
Sept. 2, 2020
Angels in me; around me
Connected as can be
As I deal with my fears
I brought on through the years
I am now listening in love
I will do whatever it takes
Do is what I’ve always done
And I’m not doing that
Surrender give way
Is what inside me is saying
Accepting what’s hear
Will happen year after year
Only live it a moment at a time
New experiences
Being at a lake
Living in a bush
Beside an open field
Under a starry night
It’s still the same moon
Still the same sun
Shining down on everyone
Do what I need
To enjoy being me
Capturing precious seed
Of ONE
Thurs, Sept 3, 2020 4:44 a.m.
I AM STILL HERE
WAITING FOR YOU
I AM STILL HERE
Listening TO You
WAITING
LISTENING
LOVING
STILL
September 4, 2020
Lessons I’ve learned I can think of today:
Open my heart to the world.
Song I may write
How little I changed over the years. Wanting action. Writing. Journaling, Emotional, Spiritual, Thinker, Wise, Physical, Exercise, Taking Classes, Finding New Ways to Take Care of Myself.
Yoga, Bike, Counselling, Mix Bread, Bake Buns, Talk with Friends, Music, Being with Women and Men.
Beautiful times with children and grandchildren
Putting my writing out there – then and now.
OK in the Darkness and the Light – Downstairs for Morning Journaling – Open Cabin – Cabin at the Lake Feeling
Open Window – Smell of Harvest as I do Yoga
Wrote 3 books; on the 4th
3” binder of songs and poems 1995-2019
NOW: 1” red binder is full – Purple Cover “Covid-19 – Our Way”
January 6-August 16, 2020; Birthing what can go out to the World.
Placing it all and It All Can. September 4, 2020
Bob gone to Wakaw
I am at home
Counsellor cancelled
Writing out poetry
Typing Sierra’s song
Poems about life
Learnings from Mya
Releasing the old
Relined Teeth checked
And fixed yesterday
Tears I’ve had over
My body healing
Ideas yesterday
As I sorted own music
This morning guitar out
Song: Where are you going
My little one
Barbara with babes of her own
Sierra started school
Carolyn McDade’s song: Morning
My song: History; to the tune of
Blessed Assurance
Idea: Ask nieces
For correct chords
Big Time Sneezes as
I Finish That Song
Sept. 4, 2020
Bad night
Breakthrough Morning
As I Find Songs
Reclaim My Songs
Title some
Open Heart
History
Cost
Pain I
I Want
Home
I AM
I WANT
Searching for Peace
Pain II
Wounded
Sept 4, 2020
Started Two Files – OPEN & LEAVINGS
CHANGED TITLE on Red & Purple Binder – COVID 19 – OUR WAY
Poetry & Song & – JANUARY 6 – AUGUST 16, 2020
CHALLENGED
Have Been in the Deep and Like Doing a Life Review since Bob’s near death earlier this year, my brother-in-law’s death and the terror experience re Saskatoon gangs in June. Had me in fear and grief and wanting to stay home and look within; finding my answers; finding HOME. I usually spend five to seven am; when closest to essence allowing the emotion. September 8, 2020
Living Life Is an Adventure
Showing Up. Doing yoga on my day off of nothing planned. My new ideas or looking back at something I wrote long ago. No idea where it will lead me or go. My imagination and my unexpected emotions of gratitude. All an Adventure. September 10, 2020
In the Mist
That Will Be Me Soon
On A Kayak
Raw and innocent
Closest to Essence
Communing
With Others
Rising Up
In All Directions
September 8 -12, 2020
Choices
Listening inside for the seed and creating whatever I need.
Joyous Celebrations
Plan a Party to Celebrate Getting Through the Tough Times
Attempt new things like swimming lessons for the terrified led me to kayak in Costa Rica; the snorkeling and zip-lining high in the clouds; walking through the clouds top of Peru’s Machu Pichu. September 14, 2020
Looking Back
With Love
Joyous
Celebration
Like a frog
Jumping all over.
Hearts all around
Butterfly Emerging
Still peaking out!
September 13-19, 2020
More Choices
Do My Yoga
Sing
Eat Good Food
Morning Journal
Connect with Those and All I Love
Dress Up for Me
Restrain my amount of Coffee and Alcohol
Read nurturing ideas
Plan fun
Having things to look ahead to
Golf and Tennis or Biking or Walks
Meditate at least Once A Day September 20, 2020
Leavings
Find Your Songs to Sing
Mix and Match
Not only Mine
Tell the Story of Home
It’s Happening
In All I Do
Choosing Love
In All I Do
Being Me
For You
And Others
It’s Time to Shine
Light
Flying Forth
From All
Pores
Purity and Strength
Possibilities
Endless September 23, 2020
IDEA: Leavings –Could be Idea for Naming the Writings of the Last While inspired by Book: The Woman’s Spell Breaker: A journal for rediscovering your true nature by Cindy Johnston or could be the Title of last poem or the next poem. September 23, 2020
Autumn
Equinox
Various Stages of
Undress
The Trees
On my Bike Ride
OK to Let Them Be
No Photo Needed
Hear the Leaves
Fall
As I Sit
On A Bench
Photos
On This Paper
In My Memory September 23, 2020
Staring off into the distance
Through the deep
Leavings
Various Stages of Undress
Running to get nowhere
I’m here.
Layers
Continue unfolding
Light exploding from inside September 20 – 26, 2020
I am growing before my eyes. Taking more chances. Feminine seeking to open my left eye. Right eye has been open a long time. Sees the wisdom; a Priestess which I called a Priest when I was growing up. An Egyptian Pharaoh comes to mind; a woman in a position of power.
Part of the Universe not wholly there yet. Emerging from the deep.
Drawing on the wisdom of ancestral women who plowed the land; lived genteel lives.
I am ready to take my place sharing the love and truth that are my experience to share.
OVERCOME backwards is Come Over; get to know my best in all I do.
September 27, 2020
FALL
Leaving yellow poplars of our backyard
Evergreened courtyard for a country drive
Noise buffer zone being built for newest residential neighborhood
Nearly leaving September behind
Hello to coppery reds and oranges
Leaves nearly gone some places
Migrating geese; golden stubble
Bales in the ditches; canola swaths needing drying
Huge white flock; nine; bigger than geese
Crane type birds- no black tips so not whoopers
Half dozen magpies; a hawk; more Canada geese
Huge eagle sits on the highest tree; two crows watching it
Many darting little brown birds
Another eagle atop a telephone pole
Or are there telephone poles anymore
Probably a power pole
Four geese pecking the stubble
Seven seagulls; must be near water
We are; a grand slough
Cattle close by
Farms in the distance
Shiny grain bins in a line
Church spire shows off the town
Cell phone tower beside
No elevators around
Another eagle right after I exclaimed
“Oh, the beauty of the land”
Flapping its wings over hills of unbroken land
Poplars, shrubs and grasses; twenty shades of color
Greens, golds, burnished reds; browns, greys
Silver, yellows, oranges, soft beiges
As our picnic in the country ends
More than twenty whooping cranes
White with black tipped wings
Complete a fly over
A raven on a fence post
Great blue heron on water
We follow a line of cars to the city.
September 27, 2020
Emerging from the deep
To a position of power.
Writing
My thumbprint on life!
Centred and calm
Being for a long time.
Wavering
I’m here
Engaged in it All!
September 27 – October 3, 2020
Look
I’m ready
I am living it
Loving life
Each moment precious
Practical
Allowing the past
To continue to appear
As it does
The healing informs
The Present
Healing Myself
Has been a present
To myself and others.
Taking one more step
Or three more steps a day
Has helped me carry on
When I don’t know the road
Listening inside is how I’ve won
Was a song or poem line from years ago
Another was live my life song.
I’ll Continue
Live the Music inside. October 7, 2020
Scared of it all!
Unthawing
Frozen Parts
Swimming upstream
Unsheathing my mouth
Laying dormant
October 4-10, 2020
Monkey
Going Downhill
On a Skateboard
Here
Waiting
Wisdom
With Wings
Clambering
For safety
October 11-17, 2020
Listen
Creatures
Trust
Open
Heart
Song
Write
Journaling
Emotional
Physical
Allowing emotion
Living
Life
Practically
Allowing
Healing
Carry On
Listening Inside
Live the Music October 17, 2020
Ancient One
Listening
Or Watching
October 19, 2020
Beauty inside and out
Winged horse striding so strong
Will it rescue me
A little one scared
So small and defenceless
Magnificent silent golden buffalo appearing
With one eye open
The light and the dark keeping all afloat
In the ocean of life. October 20, 2020
Snow is here
I am here
Not going south
And the tears pour forth October 20, 2020
The light is shining through
Shrouded
October 21 & 22, 2020
My body
A repository
Of the Old and the Dying
Ropes of the Past
And a Minefield of Rich
Abiding Beauty and a
Part of the Deep of
All That Is
October 23, 2020
Unhappiest dog
Takes centre stage
Amidst covid commotion
October 24, 2020
Climbing out of the muck
October 25, 2020
Breaking through the layers
Softening
Finding the humour
The Old
Put on Hold
Is Calling
From Inside October 29, 2020
COLLAGE:
Sorting out what is leaving. Some Great. Some not so great. I’m 65. Travelled Hawaii. Snow birding for our tenth year. Insurance supposedly settled but was not as health concern for Bob. Mainly feel financially secure but the close calls over the last two years taken its toll; my losing sleep, vitamin d issue, technology, electronics. Knowing and guessing what’s going on. Then Covid hit. Summer Came. Wakaw and an RV newest idea doesn’t seem real yet.
At the centre, I am a Saskatchewan Writer; A guild in Myself and In Others that support me; People close and Not so close & SWG is here if I want it
Challenge is family first as spending time with grandchildren; all three in different ways; and CHILDREN & partners; connecting with them and family of origin. Winter is coming. What do we want in our Retirement? Active Lifestyle. Not dreading “what’s over the next hill.” Different paths, same destination; LOVE; free to be me, Simple experiences, local, Staying Healthy.
Keep Evolving. Stay, Play, Planning our Getaways, Saskatchewan, Paris, The Rhine.
Write, Earn, Repeat. Build on What I’ve Done. Put it out there. Confidence.
Come from Within – What was away is here – Layers
Art of the Matter.
There’s a Whole Universe Within and Without.
October 28, 29, 2020
There’s A Whole Universe
Within and Without
October 30, 2020
Breaking Up
Coming Clearer
October 31, 2020
LIFE SONG (acrostic)
Living connected
Innocence long gone
Fairly open to new
Erasing history
Sooner rather than later
Onto the next thing
Nothing held back
Growing with Other’s help.
(a little girl turned carping woman with only her head out of the water in the big dark sea of life – with two golden ancient ones; like a gargoyle or Egyptian pharaoh type creature and a mythical tree spirit looking on that will be there for her if she calls on them and glad I have a knowing I will get through even if challenging to live this; as the tears pour)
November 1, 2020
My puppy is back
Young at heart
An old wise dog
Surrounded
By caring gentle men
A golden elephant
Not forgetting anything
Stepping lightly
Not plodding along
Ancient divine beings
A miniscule child comforted
November 2, 2020
Up and outside at 4 am in darkness
And the tears come
Looking at Stars & Sky & Moon & Vastness
Know I’m not Alone But
Consciousness is the miniscule me leaving
In (to) the vastness
And yet may have 40 years left.
November 3, 2020
All of nature is here.
November 3, 2020
Country Space Writings
November 3, 2020
What to do to deal
With this anger and grief
Knowing each moment as home
“Something which is known to have been from the beginning”
Song from another time comes
2014 picture comes on FB
Me in royal colors
2018 picture comes to me
Compliments of SWG
Up to me whether or which
I choose for member profile
More to deal with
Part from writing Beyond
Whole body of writings
Have been a way of dealing with
Loss, anger, pain, remorse
Love, gratitude, thankfulness
And Not being honest if not sharing
The pain and anger and heartache.
Despondency, hopelessness
Not in the despair
Acknowledging I have choices
Not ready to take responsibility
For learning, making them
Putting stuff out myself with no help
Fear of making a mistake
Hurting someone
See what I’m living every day
November 4, 2020
Heartbreak and hope
Both eyes open
Alive in the ocean of life
Surrounded by
A lot of dead wood
November 4, 2020
Cleaning up
Loose ends
November 5, 2020
Fun loving elf looking
Girl Pinocchio
Lie to get my own way
Deep dark abyss
Behind
Remember Light
Surrounds
Infiltrates
Face the Despair
I am strong
I can walk through anything
Ms. Pinocchio has a lot of hats
One eye open and the
Darkness is rising
To the surface
Gold inside
November 6, 2020
Endless Possibilities
Busy bee mind
Lying part of me
On the move
Mind at rest
A little bit wiser
Ready to engage
Puppy at the ready November 7, 2020
All moments
Enjoy or don’t do it
Crap – I’m in it
Moving it out
Dead wood
Picture of me
When with family
Heartbreak and hope
Surrounded by a lot
Of Dead Wood
Do what I want
Take my place in
The Call of the World
Sierra & I playing
The guitar making up songs
November 8, 2020
Open Book – call it Crap
Love the Open Writing
Doing right now
Leavings unsure about
Roarings
November 8, 2020
With people each week more than own family;
don’t know their last names
Why the frustration?
Not manifesting desires
Who is reading it anyway?
Sending out in the world
Open, Leavings, Roarings, Gifts
Grief from past, Frustration in present;
Shame, self-pity, alone
Others going through similar
Need out of here
Can’t stand thought of loss
Found pens
Wrote friends
New Ideas for connecting
Say good-bye to others
To dreams unfulfilled
Old hurts I took personally
Appreciation for what I have
Sometimes can’t share
Fears of not having enough
Learn to spend money
Who do I need?
What are others going through
What shall I cancel? November 8, 2020
I AM RISING
A LITTLE MORE
OUT THERE
EACH DAY
DAY and NIGHT
AN EMBOLDENED
HAT ON TODAY
IN THIS BIG WIDE WORLD
November 9, 2020
LISTENING
November 10, 2020
Butterfly spreading its wings
Idea: Open Leavings Roarings Gifts – made it reality; name on a binder
November 11, 2020 – interesting; Remembrance Day
Chalk Full of Grief
Gold Underneath
Grief is silver
Miniscule in the vastness of our universe
Of all that is
November 12, 2020
Internalized racist
Oppressed silent
Observer recording, speaking out
And ????
November 13, 2020
BREAKING THRU
BREAKING UP AND AWAY
One
And One
Connected
One Who Knows
November 13, 2020
An ameba or manatee
Has come together inside
Surrounded by disconnection
Misunderstandings, separation
My World and me in chaos
Also surrounded by
My World and Me in
LIGHT of Love, Song and Nature
Now the light
Trickling through
The Vastness of
All that is.
November 14 & 15, 2020
A teddy bear elephant ready
To Unite with the World
November 15, 2020
Connecting the dots inside and out
November 16, 2020
Resting
Allowing
Essence
In and Through
All Directions
November 17, 2020
Breath in the Air
November 18, 2020
Piercing
Sweet
Transgressions
November 20, 2020
Breaking Up
Scattering
To the Wind
And All.
November 22, 2020
Miniscule tempest
In Big Scene of Life
November 23, 2020
Spiralling Up
And Down
November 24, 2020
Combining INNER GLEANINGS – weekly instead of daily to save paper and money on ink.
MAY combine LEAVINGS (AUGUST 9-October 17/20) with OPEN
Tendrils Seeking
Old Comfort
Spirituality
Not there anymore
Something better out there
And in here
Even better
But I still cry
November 25, 2020
Spring Forth
Growing Up
November 26, 2020
Touching
Everywhere
November 27, 2020
A Little Tipsy
But Not from Drink
November 28, 2020
Wrapped up Leavings for my Daughter
Did combine leavings with open
Took out names; left some in; never enough;
Enough!
November 28, 2020
-Appreciating the past; living the present (guy on fb says about his wife who died; lost you 12 years ago; appreciate your company every day and good to see he is happily in relationship now)
-Learning to BE in the world; even if have to write out what I’m going to say first.
-“All is alive; the wonder of it all”, like a coffee table; alive from the wood and glass; spirit still in it of the one who made it; that or is all projection; debating sharing what I see; would others judge as bonkers or are people open enough; non-judgementally interested if I share I see spirit of a man’s face in doorknob; reminds me of a sheik or Jesus’s face and head I see in pictures; ” Is it projection or spirit of connection.
November 29, 2020
The Uncovered
Smaller All the Time
November 30, 2020
Still care what people think of me
Can lend an ear
Turbulence outside of me
Always more around
Some will give thumbs up
Majority won’t
Wanting to be liked
December 1, 2020
Very challenging to be in relationship
With self, others and our universe.
December 1, 2020
Shine On & Let Others
Issues Drift on By
December 2, 2020
Enormity of feelings
Wonder of light surrounding them
December 3, 2020
The fourteen ways I was connecting on December 2, 2020
Email, Zoom Singing, Face book, A drop off at my door, Hello to strangers across the street on our walk; texting, in depth conversation with my partner, Invite on what’s app, messenger; cell phone and land line conversations; mailed letter to my grandchildren, journaled to myself.
December 4, 2020: Bob and I awake at 1:30 a.m.; hear a door close. I spent most of night awake attempting meditation and requesting assistance from those in the light gone before to connect with my essence of all that’s been that we all move through this safely.
WAKE UP: DREAM: CHILD DEAD IN BUSH:
Feeling better; Wrote in journal: Getting it: Survivor Guilt; I’m alive; She isn’t; meaning Dorothy
Not my story to tell; I told it re several people’s issues, back in the day of my first book; still do it with my no boundaries
Stories I hear re societal divisions; vaccine contents; am I repeating wrong information; guilt lives on
Used to want to make world a safer place; now just want to live in the present while appreciating the past. Sometimes I lead; sometimes I follow
Stop: mind
Depth
December 4, 2020
Rigidity
Happiness
Separation
Holiness
Wrong Doing
Unknowingness
Love when it’s not Love
Guilt
Still in the “Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.”
Out of step with the world, still stuck in the past; escape with words, books and doing.
Degrees of Separation
December 5, 2020
An upside-down world
December 6, 2020
Too much again So black and white
Upside down, round and round Seeing eye to eye
Some would say circle Some would say square
Some would say They weren’t even there
Like a hockey rink Some flying round
Are not upright Only upside down
Life is a game Enjoy it while you can
We have teammates So let’s go and play
Some are in the open Some closed down
Some love the noise Others not a sound
Music fits for some Straight and narrow
Others want to wait Like a brown sparrow
It may never fit For most that I know
Do it for myself Put on a show
Soft at heart Where it intersects
Breathing softly Listening till it fits. December 6, 2020
THE PITS; the seed
Part of My World
December 7, 2020
Climbing out
Hanging On
Others Helping
December 8, 2020
Bit of my Head
Out of the Muck
December 9, 2020
Christmas 2020
What if you’re unsure you like Christmas
What if it all seems a sham
When you hate the consumption
When it’s supposed to be about the Man
It’s a struggle to even write about this
I no longer try to fit in
Now I’m having visions of mincemeat pie
Inviting kids even though there is Covid
Christmas for me is the big C
Connecting in any way we can
I’m not a gift buyer; never was
Most years gave something to everyone
I think we’ll still do Christmas Eve
It’ll BE whether we do it or not
Last year, champagne, orange juice; Christmas brunch
Arizona’s rain for days was our lot.
So, turkey and trimmings for two or five
Christ’s light I’ve seen may or may not appear
Celebrate Christ and all that is
As today I end another fear
Christmas for me is the big C
Christ Connection needed no plan
Celebration with Creativity
As all on earth for me is Clan,
December 10, 2020
As little as the elf on the shelf, of the vast cosmos
One of the herd in life on earth
A wisp of air
December 10, 2020
Letter to Warren, Barbara & Brett about Consciousness, Communication, Caring, Celebration, Christ, Law of The Land, Blizzard, Covid, others being part, in regards to Christmas as well as sent the Christmas 2020 song
(growing up could not talk about anything not nice; religion or politics)
Trampling Along
December 11, 2020
I am a leaf
On my way out December 12, 2020
Wide eyed devil stepping
Out in a suit
December 13, 2020
The veil has lifted
December 14, 2020
BOW – Body of Writings – idea for a video opening -gift unwrapping –
Shine on
As leaves drift
Away
Another cloud shall appear
December 15, 2020
Tried and true works
December 16, 2020
Glistening
Ready
December 17, 2020
Miniscule Me
Pondering Anew
December 18, 2020
Wise
In My Own Right
In the Background
December 19, 2020
Rocks Are Big
I Can Move Ahead
December 21, 2020
Connected to Benevolence (well meaning and kindly)
In nature and man-made
December 23, 2020
“NOW YOU CAN GO ON – Carolyn McDade”
Greening
Mouse ahead of myself
December 24, 2020
Living the light at the end of the Tunnel
December 25, 2020
I’m Done
And so okay with it!
December 27, 2020
ellensagh 