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I just want to scream and yell, have someone to tell; What it’s been like to me

I don’t want to wait, I want to create; And pull up the shades of being me

I can do it, I know I can, I’ll tell every nation what’s been my creation

And its okay just to be me.

Not only just, it’s not really just. I can do whatever I can

I’ve lived here and there, it’s not really square or ended what happened to me.

When I give to others, I give to myself; a new concept I haven’t previously seen

It was nothing; well, I’m worth something

I’m worth more than who I have been

I’ve listened well to my father as well; the father that’s inside of me

It’s time to tell, it’s time to tell; The inside and outside of me.

I can sleep easy, knowing it’s freaky; What all happened to me.

Knowing it will not be sitting still; It’s working its way out of me

It’s not easy, I feel kind of queasy and part of me just wants to run

Letting it out, getting rid of the doubt; Will allow me to lay in the sun

I’m happy here, I’m not very clear; What all needs to be done

My throat is hurting, my lungs are bursting; It’s time to give up the drug (Smoking)

I’ll be okay on a summer’s day. I’ll have nothing from which to run

It’s okay to say what I need to say; if I need to pray a little each day, I’ll do whatever I can

I need to be heard, I’m no longer blurred

I have reason to live again; I’m not really clear what’s happening here; but better than being half dead

Or being here, just being here would fill me up with such dread

It’s time to awaken, new steps to be taken on this the journey called life; It’s time to listen but also to glisten and enjoy these steps of my life. Be my own best wife

November 29, 1998