There’s pain in my neck
Like a bullet went thru
Pain in my face and my jaw
Pain I couldn’t allow
Pain that hurts so deep inside
Pain I’m no longer trying to hide
Pain I will allow
It’s torn me up and kept me apart
And never made a sound
Well now it’s screaming in my ear
Hear me out
Hear me out
What are you trying to say to me
What am I willing to hear
All that I have loved and lost
I need to cry a million tears
I need the time to let it all out
All the hurt and horror I’ve bore
But also the hurt and horror I’ve seen
It’s ripped me right to the core.
I’ve found a way to say what I need
What’s been screaming in my head
A way that people won’t be afraid of me
And wish that I were dead.
It’s all locked up inside of me
On the right side of my brain
I’ve turned the key
Unlocked the door
I’m breaking all the chains
Help me to sing out all my truth
And never never let it be said
That noone cared enough for you
You’d be better off being dead
I’m having trouble to understand
What’s really happening here
I want to put myself first
I will if it takes another year.
I’ll take 5 or 10, twenty-two
I’ll take the rest of my life
I’ll make it all up to you
What you’ve been missing in this life
My head is better the slicing pain is gone
I still feel old beyond my years
My head it hurts and now it’s back
The pain behind my ears
I have so much to give to you
That noone else I know can
I’ll never leave you all alone
You won’t be hurt by a man
I can’t guarantee that in this world
But I’ll try to keep you safe
Come with me, you’ll always be
My angel of night by the lake.
1996
ellensagh 