My flowers are growing in the rain
Just as I am growing with my tears
As my tears run down my cheeks and chin
I see clearer the horror of all those years
Those years of doing whatever you said
And what you said I had to do
Anything I wanted or was just for me
I had to hide and keep the shame inside
But it wasn’t shameful what I did
It was me survivin’ being a kid
Being hurt over and over by men’s abuse
What they did to me there is no excuse
I was used by all the men in my life
They were nice to me but they had no right
They hurt me over and over and over again
Now I’m the one feeling the torment and pain.
I wanted to scream at the top of my voice
Leave me along – Don’t do it again
I won’t say nothing – just leave me alone
Well now I am saying – Get out of my home
Get out of my body – Get out of my sight
Get out of my life – Give me back my nigiht
The nights that were robbed from me and my sleep
The nightmares and terror that is oh so deep
I know it’s time for me to embrace
Myself, my body and keep it safe.
1996
ellensagh 