My body is now telling me
(My body is now telling me)
Crying and singing will get all
The guck out of me
The tears falling down seem to say
Grieving will show me the way
My body is totally (totally) exhausted.
Trauma is what it has been living
I am in a panic to be by myself
To take care of me; have no demands
But life isn’t like that with its demands
It expects a response from all of its hands
All I can do is take care of myself
As I am surviving and finding myself
Myself that was taken by powerful men
To them a message I’d like to send
You may have had power; Power in words
But underneath; You were weak little nerds
You took what you wanted with no thought but yourself
No thought for me or anyone else
I am reliving the days and the nights
None of it easy not a pretty sight
(I am here now; what can I say
I am happy to share another day)
Sad, isn’t it.
1996
Note: then, for me SAD stood for sexual abuse, alcohol and death; now stands for singing and dancing. Words in brackets added 2024.
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