My angel of night is no longer silent
My angel of night is crying her pain
My angel of night is still scared of others
She’s learning to trust as I help her reframe
It wasn’t her fault that man in black got her
He did what he wanted and made her cry
It wasn’t her fault that nobody listened
It wasn’t her fault that she started to lie
It wasn’t her job to take care of the kids
To do all the work, be too tired to play
And when the man in black hurt her sisters
It wasn’t her fault she couldn’t say
Put them down and leave them alone
Get out of here, Get out of our home
I don’t want you, you and your kind
To mess up my body, mess up my mind
With words of hell, the devil and fire
No wonder I was scared I was a liar
The devil would get me if I went to sleep
I tried to be good, prayed myself to sleep
Praying didn’t change a thing for me
I tried it in every way I knew
I looked for answers outside myself
It’s taken so long to feel brand new
New and innocent pure and clean
Free of the shit to do with the past
Free of the shit to do with the church
With God, the Lord, the nuns, the priest
The pope, teachings, the scams, the priest
Free of the shit but still connected
To the beauty and joy that I have seen.
1996
ellensagh 