On a summer’s day
When I took time out for me
I walked alone
Through the trees and hills
Past a lake where ducks and geese were still
I was alone. I was silent.
I needed you to give up time for me
So you could finally hear
What needed to be said
What’s been stored inside my head
All the hate and hurt and horror that I bore
I was alone. I was silent.
Please listen, don’t leave me again
I need someone to listen to my pain
I don’t ever want to be alone again
I was alone. I was silent.
I’m here for you. I’ll never leave again
I will listen to everything you say
I’ll let you cry and sing you lullabies
And help you sleep again
You can scream. You can cry
And I’ll be there for you
I’ll never let you down
I’ll care for you.
It would be easier
If I knew what I was dealing with
I feel so bad, I feel so sad
The tears they want to come
It doesn’t matter if there is a sun
I deserved better than I got
I was hurt beyond recognition
I needed love
More than anything in the world
It mattered – just because I was a girl
You could do anything to me
Can’t you see
You hurt my heart
You cared nothing for me
For my feelings or my sanity
I was alone. I was silent.
1996
ellensagh 