My heart is breaking, it’s crying inside
I know it is opening, improving our lives
It hurts to be here, it feels so alone
I know it’s a part of finding my way home
Always so tired feel like I’m beaten
No new ideas, only feel like weeping
Wanting to be with someone who cares
Someone to laugh with, someone to share
But where do I meet him when I’m feeling like this
Someone who’ll love me, in spite of all this
They must be out there, men who’ll do their own work
Who are out on a journey getting out of the murk
Why do I need them when I have all my friends
My soul is searching it’s making amends
For all that’s happened, happened to me
To have some faith again in humanity
They’re half of the races in this land of our own
I want to walk safely on my way home
It is cold comfort that some of them see
Or are able to hear what happened to me
If they don’t do nothing and they can’t take a stand
And redefine something what it means to be a man
Searching for power leads to disgrace
And it is our lives that have been displaced
I want the power over what happens to me
Now I have it, I still have to grieve
Grieving is sadness, anger and more
It’s saying good-bye to what is no more
A happy childhood fun in my teens
A marriage of sharing, a life of peace
I have years ahead of me more than are gone
I can fill it with flowers and my life song
1997
ellensagh 